The Bellis Report: Down but not out    
 Down but not out3 comments
10 Jun 2006 @ 03:55, by Gavin Bellis

You know how easy it is for one to be subject to the habits of man, even when one is in full knowledge of it? How one has such a firm belief in something and, with one defying question from one soul, even one's own, a person's morals can be shattered?

I have been absent for some time from NCN, regretfully. While at one point I had one idea flowing into the next, spurring and stirring inspirations, epiphanies of perceptions of all that exists within and without...it did not last. Not only did I have severe writer's block, but I also had a doubt of morals. I imagine saying too much of something not entirely founded by, at least, oneself, you tend to lose little pieces of thatr ideal mindset upon each spoken word, as if speaking, jettisonned who you are, simply because you truly haven't thought it through enough yet.
And, i am back, my mind regathered. I feel once more prepared to tackle the big things of life. Once more, i am ready to percieve, albeit with greater caution and, with greater insight.
Given enough time to reflect upon myself for what and who I am, what and who I am becoming, I have returned to be once more, a usual writer. Expect more from me in the near future.


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10 Jun 2006 @ 04:41 by vaxen : Ok!
Welcome back Mr Bellis.
I look forward to what 'you' have to say.  

11 Jun 2006 @ 08:48 by jazzolog : Me Too
Anyway, even we old Yanks get tired of ourselves and hang it up from time to time. The fresh air of silence is good for the ventilation.  

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